The 💯Series….Teenage Mom
Picture it: 17 and pregnant. No money, no job and living in an already poverty stricken environment. This was my life 22 years ago. I was a junior in high school with my first baby on the way.
How would I tell my mom? Will I finish school? How can I take care of a baby? How will the community look at me now? All of these questions zoomed through my mind as I sat on the floor of our upstairs bathroom, pregnancy test in hand. Then the deep dark thought of abortion also crept in. To be brutally honest,(a.k.a being💯!) that thought commenced the action of finding an abortion clinic., making an appointment, and visiting the office. Once my exam was finished the Doc informed me that I was too far along for the procedure. I left the office in tears.
Dejected and without hope, I finally broke down and told my Mother. We both cried. Weeping, I apologized to her for letting her down. I was anticipating the beating of a lifetime or at the very least, getting kicked out of the house. Yet she responded in love, something that I wasn’t expecting at all! It was shocking and quite honestly refreshing. Mom looked at me and said “What’s done is done all I can do now is help you with the baby and love you and the baby no matter what”(that’s what she did till the day she died)! In that moment I knew I was forgiven and better still…Loved! Looking back at it, I see how God used her to show me what His love really looks like:
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends….1 Corinthians 13:4-8
The Bible tells us that God is love 1 John 4:8. He is also the author of life Genesis 1: 1-31. So what I had deemed as the most horrific of circumstances God saw as an opportunity to show me love and mercy through His love. Pastor John Gray puts it this way:
‘God is a redeemer of broken situations. He can bring value out of our most shameful seasons. He specializes in giving us beauty for ashes.God’s sovereign will mandates that there is no such thing as accidental life. All life is the direct result of the voice of God’.
God already knew which choices I would make before I was even born. I often wondered why He never stopped me from having premarital sex? Or why He allowed me to go through that season of life? Truth is God designed us all to make choices. He gives us the option of choosing life( His way of living) or death(The world’s way).
‘Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!’ Deuteronomy 30:19
I must admit that I didn’t make the best choice. I allowed my flesh to control my thoughts and actions. I knew the consequences of my choice and I went ahead, partaking in the act nevertheless. But you know what? God loved me through it, forgave me for it , blessed me in it, and worked it out for my good!
He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us.’
Psalms 103:10-12 ESV
Today I am a married mom of 4 boys. I believe that the Author of Life has a great plan for all of them. My oldest 22, whom I am very proud of, has chosen to follow the path of music. It is my sincere prayer that all of my sons choose to follow God. Like David being men after God’s heart. And I’ll be here loving, encouraging and praying for them along the way✌.
Today, I understand that it is all for and through Him that I have a voice and greater still, life abundantly! I am honored to be His willing vessel on the earth to help edify His Kingdom. Feel free to comment ,subscribe and share this post!